DEDICATION:TO A RARE TREASURE...
...A WONDERFUL FRIEND...
TO A FAB. PERSON WHO HAS A PERMANENT PLACE IN MY HEART...
...U 'R A CHERISHED JEWEL WHO IS WORTH MORE THAN ICE. LISTENING LOVE IS CONFIDENTIAL. IT SAYS I WON'T BETRAY YOU. THE SECRETS WE'VE SHARED ARE LOCKED IN MY HEART. U ALONE KNOW THE COMBINATION.
...U 'R LOVED TODAY N' ALWAYS...
THE NOTEMon amour,I guess its time to say this. Its good to know that you've made up part of my memories -warm memories which will forever be cherished by me.
Thinking back to the very first time I heard your name, to me, you were only that bloke on the other side. I had no feeliings until we started saying 'hi'. Well, then, I thought you were a big time feeler trying to make an impression. I was suprised when you told me the picture -my picture. I couldn't think of any reason why you would've been attracted to me 'cos, I'm positive that there are so many babes at your end. Anyways, I'm really honoured.
On the other side, what attracted me to you isn't quite clear to moi. It might be your straight-forwardness, your sense of humour or, your voice. I guess it's your voice. You might not have noticed but...(confession). I had and still have a crush on your voice.
Moving on, I found out that you were great company. You became my friend, my confidant,my 'mini'-mentor,my prince-charming and my world; all in all, you've become my everything and everyday, I give thanks I found you. I believe there's a reason for things turning out this way.
No matter what happens, you'll always be in my heart and I don't think I'll forget you -unless I have amnesia (Heavens forbid). In other words, you'll always be a part of me. I hope you feel the same way.
At times, I wonder if I'm under the influence of a spell 'cos, this time last year, if I was told I'll fall for some guy I've never seen and write such a note as this for him, I'll tell the informer to visit a Shrink. But voila! someone up there has a way of turning our greatest fears into our greatest pleasure. I can't believe I actually daydream of us together....can you beat that! day-dreaming about a guy who has no face. It was kinda weird but very enjoyable. I remember the day I told you I love you; that felt really good. I realised that it hurts to love someone and not be loved in return but, what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel. I'm happy I told you about how I felt and I don't think I'll ever regret it.
I love everything about you. Your soothing voice, your sense of humour, your 'strokes' and 'psyches' and most of all, those beautiful psalms of yours. All your psalms really touched me and I'm very grateful for them. You are the first guy I know who's not a relative that has inspired me positively. Thanks for being there and thanks for the support given. Sweetheart, you mean a lot to me and it pains me deeply that sometimes i just go my own way... lets wait to see what destiny has in store for us.
One thing is for sure, I really like your truthfulness. You always said "the fact" and I really appreciate that. Thanks for those little words; you might not have noticed but they really went a long way. Really I wish we had met face to face and we are closer than what we are now so we would have had some much more wonderful memories to cherish...what do you think? It really touches me when I think of how much you care and how concerned about me you were. On the night of the 24th of May at about 19:30hours, when you 'implied' that I didn't care, it really,really hurt me and I started thinking that maybe you were right. I don't think I deserve you. You are a good person with a good heart... you've got lots to be grateful for.
Mehn, I remember those terribly horrible day when my phone couldn't call out. For me, those days were like nightmare. I always felt distant but,what actually fascinates me is the fact that we keep talking practically everyday and I don't get tired or bored of you. Instead, I eagerly anticipate the next call... I was so pathetic. I also remember those days I got kinda sentimental on the phone and I thought gosh! I just ruined your days, I'm sorry about that. My love, even though some of the stuff we shared during our tete-a-tete was mushy and all, I still feel it was worth it. You always made my day.
Keep this at the back of your mind:
It took me one minute to get a crush on you, an hour to like you very much, a day to fall in love with you, but seventy times seven lifetimes may come and go, I'll never forget you 'cos you'll always be in my heart.
I loved you, I love you and I'll always love.
EPILOGUEMy Darlin' Son,
On a realistic note, I sent you to the world with nothing and when you leave, you'll leave with nothing. I guess all you can do is leave behind memories of what we shared and by trying,leave good impressions on the people you leave behind. Love is a lot more than a warm frizzy feeling. In my opinion, it is being completely committed to someone the heart finds precious. You are very precious to me. You have got MY heart; and wings hiding somewhere. My darling, though I can do all things without you ('cos I'm the creator of the universe) yet,I don't know what I could have done without you. Thank you for being such a blessing and I'm truly grateful. Your laughter always made me happy. Your voice alone was enough to initiate an excitement in me. You mean the world to me, I really admire you. You have no idea how special you are,caring,talented and blessed you are. I'm thanking you,very much, for caring for me. Remember 'I'm yours to the end of time'. I may not be with you in person but in Spirit, and be certain that someone out there loves and cares for you deeply.
I just want to let you know that no matter how much people may try to get you down, don't let it upset you. I will be with you through it all. Just remain the level-headed hunk I know. I want you to know that every single moment I spent talking to you will always be cherished and your memories will go on.
Keep this at the back of your mind:
I took my time to create you; took me no time to get a crush on you; took me no hour to like you very,very much;took me no day to fall in love with you and, while I'm not bound by any lifetime,I not forget you 'cos, you were in my mind before you were created and you will always be on my mind
...Remember what I did on the cross? It all about my love for you!!!
My Precious, stay very close to me in all you do. I am a faithful God and I'll never leave nor forsake you. I, your God, love you more than you can imagine and I won't let go of you. My arms are wide open pleading with you to come but I won't push nor pull you. So, it's up to you to open the door of your heart and let me in.
All my love.
I AM.
